"I know it sounds stupid now. It even sounds stupid to me. And it wasn't you."
She hates that he would think that, that it was anything but her own head getting the better of her and her thinking more than feeling, but it's too late for that now.
"And I didn't get that then, that there was a difference. I just saw him passing up opportunities and focusing on me, and I couldn't handle that. I wasn't ready, Derek."
She's ready now. She'll take him as he is with no questions and no stipulations in whatever capacity he can give her because being around him is worth it at this point, and she doesn't deserve more than that.
"Which is why I feel like I was right. I just ... wish I'd done it differently. Or that there was another way for me to have ... " She sighs softly. "I just needed more time."
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She hates that he would think that, that it was anything but her own head getting the better of her and her thinking more than feeling, but it's too late for that now.
"And I didn't get that then, that there was a difference. I just saw him passing up opportunities and focusing on me, and I couldn't handle that. I wasn't ready, Derek."
She's ready now. She'll take him as he is with no questions and no stipulations in whatever capacity he can give her because being around him is worth it at this point, and she doesn't deserve more than that.
"Which is why I feel like I was right. I just ... wish I'd done it differently. Or that there was another way for me to have ... " She sighs softly. "I just needed more time."