"I was happy with Suzanna then, yeah. Because what else did I have? The girl who I loved with my entire heart, body, and soul threw me away because I wasn't enough for her. That's not something you come back from, Cora. That's not just happy - that is complete. only one girl has ever made me feel that way - you. But you took it away from me and any amount of pain that the Graysons have given me over the years doesn't even come close to matching that."
He didn't remember standing up, or stalking closer to her.
"So what, you didn't tell me how you felt because she was pregnant? Girls get pregnant all the time and have babies without being married. But even before then, was picking up a fucken phone too hard for you when you did figure it out? I begged you for my entire senior year of college to change your mind. I never changed my phone number or e-mail, and hell as people like to remind me so much lately - we are pack, Cora. You knew how to find me, but you didn't when you realized you wanted me back. You took the chickenshit way out and made excuses for yourself. And because of that, you left me to continue into this life and look at me now. Are you happy to see what I've become? I'm fan-fucken-tastic now, aren't I?"
His voice was getting loud, the lid off on the pain and it was not nice, and Stiles' reliance on sarcasm as a defense was coming out.
"That little girl downstairs should be ours. Instead, she's going to grow up wearing a face of a woman who took away from me anything that I was and made me into this person. I shouldn't be worried that there's a family of mobsters who are going to come here one night and slit my throat in bed and take my daughter away. I shouldn't have panic attacks at night, or feel pain anytime someone even touches me. Do you know how many times I've had to patch myself up in the dark of night while sleeping on the floor of a bathroom? How my daughter used to play doctor on me with real injuries to treat? You can't even being to imagine the horrors I've lived through because you wanted me to be happy and never even asked me if I was.
"I had a plan for us, and you said I was giving things up for you, but you never let yourself believe that maybe I wasn't giving up a single thing. I was giving us everything. But you choose not to trust me in that, and this is where your choice led. And if you're expecting me to forgive you for that, you have another thing coming, Cora Hale."
The tears on his face spoke different to the last piece of that, and the panic attack was just on the edge of taking over on him. But he glared at her one last moment.
"Looks like you take after your dad more than you thought after all."
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He didn't remember standing up, or stalking closer to her.
"So what, you didn't tell me how you felt because she was pregnant? Girls get pregnant all the time and have babies without being married. But even before then, was picking up a fucken phone too hard for you when you did figure it out? I begged you for my entire senior year of college to change your mind. I never changed my phone number or e-mail, and hell as people like to remind me so much lately - we are pack, Cora. You knew how to find me, but you didn't when you realized you wanted me back. You took the chickenshit way out and made excuses for yourself. And because of that, you left me to continue into this life and look at me now. Are you happy to see what I've become? I'm fan-fucken-tastic now, aren't I?"
His voice was getting loud, the lid off on the pain and it was not nice, and Stiles' reliance on sarcasm as a defense was coming out.
"That little girl downstairs should be ours. Instead, she's going to grow up wearing a face of a woman who took away from me anything that I was and made me into this person. I shouldn't be worried that there's a family of mobsters who are going to come here one night and slit my throat in bed and take my daughter away. I shouldn't have panic attacks at night, or feel pain anytime someone even touches me. Do you know how many times I've had to patch myself up in the dark of night while sleeping on the floor of a bathroom? How my daughter used to play doctor on me with real injuries to treat? You can't even being to imagine the horrors I've lived through because you wanted me to be happy and never even asked me if I was.
"I had a plan for us, and you said I was giving things up for you, but you never let yourself believe that maybe I wasn't giving up a single thing. I was giving us everything. But you choose not to trust me in that, and this is where your choice led. And if you're expecting me to forgive you for that, you have another thing coming, Cora Hale."
The tears on his face spoke different to the last piece of that, and the panic attack was just on the edge of taking over on him. But he glared at her one last moment.
"Looks like you take after your dad more than you thought after all."